Grown up temper tantrum anyone??

Well, I don't wanna do it.. I don't want to put any effort into losing weight.. I look at myself in the mirror and become more disgusted by the day.. I am bigger than I've ever been.. It's just horrible. You'd think I'd have this lightbulb moment and realize that I should get up and take a walk.. Nope! I want to call the nearest doctor that performs lap band and take the easy way out.. I want someone else to sculpt a new body for me.. I want someone else to come into our home and make me meals for myself and my family... I want to give up.. But, I just can't.. I know what's better for me. So, tonight despite all I WANT to do, I will be attending a weight watchers meeting.. I don't want to, but I will..